Preparing to be his help meet

I finished Preparing to be his help meet. by Debi Pearl today. It was very interesting and inspiring. I mean some of these concepts I had done when I was younger out of a desire in my heart but I eventually stopped. But perhaps it is time to start again. The first chapter was about prayer. When we pray He answers. The question then is what are we praying? are we praying that we will get the spouse of our dreams? or are we praying that all the warriors in Christ are walking in strength, wisdom, and understanding? Are we praying that God continue to protect and lead all these young men? Are we praying that God show us how to be the woman they have always dreamed about? Honestly the answer to that question I have found is most often no. We are always so focused on us that it takes quite a bit of hard work and God talking to us to change our focus. My focus went from being what kind of man do I need? to What kind of woman does he need? I had also been so focused on myself that I forgot to love people. In order to truly serve God then we need to love people and serve them, with a cheerful attitude.. That is what gets me the most. Reminding myself to be cheerful no matter what I am doing or what else I could be doing. If I am working hard for who ever needs me no matter how bored or wrong I may think them with a bored attitude or "Man, I can't wait to be done" "I have so much crap i could be doing at home" I stop breathe pray a small prayer and readjust my thoughts. I want to bless people how ever I can. If that means I am serving them, just being in their company, listening to them, talking to them about my problems to get them not stuck on their own, praying for them, or my favorite telling a story to make them laugh then that is what I am trying to do. God has called me and Chosen me for great things. I cannot wait to meet my husband on day, but for now my heart is God's and His alone. 
To be continued....