I dreamt of you last night and not for the first time. I woke up afraid of what i would see next. I got out of bed only to see the rain, it came down like the tears in my heart. All the pain and mourning makes the hole feel 3 sizes bigger than my heart. When will the pain lessen? Will I never be able to think of you with a smile and not tears? I tried to be cheerful but the music I normally listen to that makes me so cheerful just made me cry harder. How can I think on work or smiling when i can't get the dream and sadness out of my head and heart? I trust my favorite verse Isaiah 41:10 that the Lord is with me, yet the pain is still so strong and the sadness is worse. I miss you and I love you. One day we will meet again and how happy we shall be! Your birthday approaches and we used to revel in having our birthdays 10 days apart. I know you are celebrating in heaven but how can I stay happy when i know I can't get a response when i wish you happy birthday. Until we meet again.
